I battle with a constant need to quantify every aspect of my life in order to convince myself I am a success and doing well. Hence why goal-based challenges with deadlines tend to motivate me and drive my focus the most. I am very aware that I possess this sometimes obsessive mentality and know what I need to do in my life in order to balance myself and feel calm – exercise, healthy eating and meditation. I fight a constant battle to not turn these good habits into toxic addictions which can easily tip over and make me burnout.
After achieving my travel challenge of last year I am currently feeling a slump and post-win blues. Last year was an amazing for me and I am questioning how I can match it and feel good about the coming year. Of course, if anyone asked me this question now I would say it is a case of having a good attitude, not being hard on yourself and to take a moment to let things settle. But who takes their own advice?! Instead, I am reading positive affirmations from The Rock and trying not to panic about having to write an essay I am not confident I have the ability to follow through with. And that was my trigger along with the misreading of a personal situation which has bought up issues that I thought I had
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As I look at my Trello list with 14 new year goals and an additional 4 fitness specific goals I know I need to be thinking about my need for control and how to react when I feel out of control. Equally I need to start to address why I take on so much, put excessive pressure on myself and attempt to scale things realistically. Writing this post is cathartic in itself and relieving some of the tention I am feeling as I organise my thoughts, work through things and start to make sense of everything. Continue reading “What do you do after achieving a big goal”